kerisauan aku...

apa nak jadi ngan company cop P ni pun xtahu lah....aku da pening ngan hear say yg bermacam2. yg aku tahu n aku rasa happy - aku dah di shorlisted dlm exercise "conversion to permanent" which aku da pun lepas screening proses. cuma tinggal wat profiling evaluation n then proceed to the structure interview session lah.

hearsay yg buat aku mcm cuak ialah - relative declaration. only 2 siblings MAX in the company. unfortunately, 2 of my brother dah pun jadik staff permanent in the company...aku yg ke-3 ok. 3^rd sibling will not be accepted although sponsored by the Company or come from critical skill group.

so far, semua ni hanyalah hearsay...but still blh buat aku cuak!! hukhuk!!

pasal contract employment aku lak, aku da dpt new T&C as my current contract will be expired soon. the package is ok, cuma yg wat aku surprised n x puas hati - i'm not gonna be paid during my maternity leave. dulu for sure aku x kisah sbb aku single, skrg ni aku da kawen n semestinyalah aku ada chances to get pregnant kan. aku dah x daya nak fight lagik dah...ke hilir ke hulu aku dah tnya org n da ngadap HR...

xperlah, aku terima seadanya!!

best ke kawen?

ini pic td adik mms kat aku....pic ni aku letak as wallpaper kat pc kat umah. nmpak sgt dia snap dr pc pastu mms kat aku...korang nmpak tak ada arrow cursor kat pic tu? ehehehe.

kebosanan tahap dewa agaknya adik aku tu. skrg tinggal dia je kat umah wat peneman mak dan ayah. sok pas UPSR, kalo dia pon nk duk hostel..tinggallah mak ayah jd pengantin baru balik kat umah tu...hehehehe.

ok, berbalik pd soalan - best ke kawen?

ada la few of my frens bertanyakan pd aku soklan ni. bila aku jawab "BEST!!" mula la gelakkan aku. one of my fren tu siap soal lg pastu..."so, nyesal x kawen lewat?" aku cakap...aku x nyesal, malah aku bersyukur sbb aku kawen pd usia yg matang..pd ketika aku dah cukup bersedia dan dah byk ambil iktibar dari kisah perkahwinan mereka yg dekat dgn aku.

so far, aku ngan en.suami xder masalah sangat. cuma aku perasan, aku agak manja dan semakin mengada2 betul skrg.

hubungan aku ngan keluarga en.suami pon ok. hubungan mak ayah aku ngan besan dorang pon ok.

aku happy! aku syukur sgt pada Yg Esa kerana beri aku peluang merasai semua ni. Alhamdulillah....

dua cerita..

hehe...aku mcm syok lak bila lately ni blh berblogspot dari opis!! ;p

ari ni aku ada 2 cerita...1 ttg kekesalan, 1 lg pasal excited. mana korang nk tahu dulu? ekeke...
ok la, aku nk bercerita pasal kekesalan lah dahulu. weekend lepas, aku balik ke umah mak aku. da lama x borak2 ngan mak, kali ni blk lama skit blh la berborak2 ngan dia smbil en.suami dan ayah ke belakang rumah menjejak durian, manggis, salak, duku dan rambutan..hehe.

korang ada dgr x kisah pelajar perempuan bergaduh? aku ada dengar tp aku buat x kisah je, last2 mak aku citer, budak2 tu budak2 kg aku je sbnarnya. Ya Allah...sungguh terkejut aku dengar citer dr mak aku. mak, ayah n adik2 aku dh tgk video budak2 tu bergaduh...tp aku x tgk lagi..wpun x tengok, dgr citer dr mak aku pun aku dah rasa geram dan sakit hati. aku kenal benar dgn salah sorang budak pmpuan tu (yg menganiaya). budak pmpuan yg aku kenal ni jiran aku...adalah selang 4,5 buah rumah dr rumah aku...aku kenal benar ngan ibu bapanya...ngan abang2 nya...kesimpulan yg aku blh kata...budak2 kalo xder perhatian dari mak ayah inilah akibatnya!!

aku sungguh x sangka budak yg br berusia 14 tahun dah ada tokoh jadi ketua geng mafia...nauzubillah.. apapun, aku mohon budak2 yg belum matang ni akan dpt pengajaran dan insaf. nanti dah tua baru nk menyesal dah xder guna. aku juga berharap agar mak bapak budak2 jahat ni akan buka mata dan sedar akan tanggungjawab dorang. sibuk cari kekayaan smpai akhlak anak2 tergadai...mati nanti bukan blh bw harta2 tu semua masuk kubur pun..

ok lah. citer kedua ialah,

aku bakal
...................................................................................................

...................................................................................................


...................................................................................................
...................................................................................................

bakal apa yer????


...................................................................................................

...................................................................................................
...................................................................................................




...................................................................................................




...................................................................................................


.....................................................................................................................................



...................................................................................................











...................................................................................................
...................................................................................................
...................................................................................................



...................................................................................................

bakal pindah rumah sendiri laaaaaaaaaaa....ehehehehe. seronoknya nak pindah rumah sendiri, wpun rumah da x baru! hehehe

oprah words - Oprah wrote this about men...

dapat dr email - copy paste je ni...hehe

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.

Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deservethen heck no, you can't "be friends". A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle.

If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not
better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?

Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later. You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if hehas more education or in a better job.
Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less. Never let a man define who you are. Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you. All men are NOT dogs.
You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two waystreet. You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage...

Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship. "You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you... a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals... look for someone complimentary...not supplementary. " Dating is fun... even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.
Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted. Never move into his mother's house.
Never co-sign for a man. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

Share this with other women and men (just so they know)...
You'll make someone smile, another rethink her choices, and another woman
prepare.

misi separa berjaya

misi nk celebrate bday en.suami separa berjaya. yg x berjaya ialah plan utk masak2..hehe, semalam blk ofis lmbat, singgah kat kedai barang basah...benda yg dicari telah habis, jadi mood utk memasak sudah lari..hukhuk.

balik rumah tgk en.suami dah ada kat rumah, alamak!! cemaner nak sorok pezen dia ni..iskk!! masuk je rumah smbil bw paper bag dgn selamba shj, dia x perasan pun, hehe. lepas slm peluk cium en.suami, terus suh dia siap2...mkn kat luar je lah.

herm, so instead of candle light dinner di rumah, aku just treat him ke secret recipe shj. mkn2 di sana. balik dr secret recipe, aku wat xtahu je kat dia...dia tgk tv, aku masih dlm bilik. aku letak pezen kat atas tilam..and aku kuar bilik tgk tv sesama ngan dia.

masuk tido...dia surprise tgk pezen tu, dia mmg igtkan xder pezen pasal dah belanja mkn td. hehe. and aku suka sgt sbb dia suka hadiah tu...

note: wpun separa berjaya tp aku yakin it was a memorable bday celebration for him..sbb ni kali pertama dia celebrate bday, and to make it more special...diraikan setelah bergelar suami...diraikan bersama isteri tercinta!! how sweet.

en.suami oh en.suami

akhirnya....aku dah pun beli sesuatu sbg hadiah bday utk en.suami, hehe. xderlah mahal pun, xtahu la dia suka atau tak...tp nak paksa jugak supaya dia suka - bley? hikhik.

petang nnti nk g beli kek, gi beli barang basah...mlm ni nk masak!! hoyeyyy...nak candle light dinner ler kununnnn. ahahha. apebenda nk masak pun xtau ler...nasib la en.suami oii dpt isteri mcm gini, hehe.

note: batuk2 aku ni masih x hilang lg. spoil betul la kalo mkn mlm nnti terbatuk2...x lomantik lah kan. huhuuuu

harus bg apa yer?

en.suami x lama lg bakal menyambut ulangtahun kelahiran nya. da x lama, 15 july ni dah. yet aku belum decide nak hadiahkan apa utk dia. teruk betul isteri muhammad redzuan ni yer...huhu.

ni 1st time la aku sambut hari lahir dia since kiteorg kenal..hehe.

aku duk tgh fikir2 lagi ni....nak bg apa kat dia ek??

hermm....